No Time.

Have been feeling so overwhelmed with work and the to do list at home. Just one foot in front of the other. A week ago Saturday was the service(s) for Rick's stepdad. I can't remember what we did that Sunday other than church and swim lessons. Kids had this haircuts this past weekend and Abby gymnastics. Cleaned house, errands, got a new fake tree and it's all decorated. We already did the Santa visit too. Like two weeks ago. Kids are off this week. Took them to work this morning so Rick could get his back worked on. They still have homework, piano, reading, spelling, bible. Abby has another book report due. Aidan has to practice for some mini play he is in for a special Chapel at school. Rick works Thanksgiving Day so we are eating on Friday like we do every year. Having his mom over this time. Aidan's birthday is rapidly approaching as well. SO. MANY. THINGS. He still doesn't like parting with his nigh-night when it goes in the wash. We got a letter from Nzembi today. She is doing well and it warms my heart.

Birth and Death

Hubby's birthday was last Thursday. We both took it off for date day. It started out fabulous- breakfast, then to coffee, browsing some shops and a movie- Captain Phillips. Amazing, intense film until about an hour in when I felt like I was going to throw up. We went home and I laid down and sent him to pick up his own birthday cake. Awesome. Also cancelled dinner plans we had with Ashley. Early evening and I feel horrible because it's his birthday, so he decides on his favorite pizza. I drag him grocery shopping and to pick up his pizza. I wake up the next day and feel like I'm fighting a cold but other than that pretty ok. I was still perplexed about how fast it came on and how awful I felt so I googled what I suspected was the case. I had motion sickness from the movie!!
Rick's dad was moved to a care home earlier in the week. He passed away Saturday night.
My cousin was released from the hospital last Tuesday. My Uncle had his aortic valve replaced and made it through the surgery. The surgeon said it was the worst one he has seen and he probably wouldn't have lived another 2 months.
We had parent/teacher conferences today. Muddling through. Saying lots of prayers.

So So Much.

Overload. One of us is going to crack and you know it won't be him. He is all things calm. My cousin had surgery and is still in the hospital with chest pains. I went up to visit him last week and then went up 2 floors to visit my father in law. You just should not have two people in the hospital at the same time. Make that three. Yeah. My Uncle is having one of his heart valves replaced on Wednesday and will be in ICU for 2 days with a high risk of stroke.
Rick's dad smiles and lights up and holds your hand and won't let go. He's still in there. Unspoken love yet so heartbreaking. Rick is gone 14 hours for work and then goes to the hospital. Our level of communication is texting because we have brief moments at bedtime to update each other. "Can you get the dog in?" "Did you remember to cancel swim lessons for this week?" or "Remind me of that tomorrow." His birthday is Thursday. Even THAT was a text, "What do you want to do for your birthday".... sigh. Kids and dog were all Robin Hood this year. No school last Friday so I took them to work with me. Rick and I were supposed to split the day because they get so bored after doing homework and reading and video games but he had another family meeting at the hospital and then a work emergency to get back to. We split volunteering in Aidan's classroom every Monday but I felt like I can't miss work tomorrow because it's sucking the life out of me to the point of tears. I came in late Thursday because of Aidan's Hoop a Thon and my hospital visits and Friday I had the kids with me. Over the top amount of stress. Rick has his chiro appt Monday (yes still all things accident) and is working on helping to find a care home for his dad to move to with hospice care. So it's hard asking him to help when he is still spinning in circles. His job is no picnic either. Van goes back in for more repairs on Tuesday (still all things accident).
Today Abby spoke at church at all 3 services regarding her Bibles for Egypt service project from 2012. It's amazing to me how this little story keeps coming up well over a year later. God is sure mighty with this one. We are so proud of her. She was so nervous at the first service but the other two she had it in the bag. We were there from 730 until after noon. Had to rush her to the training center where she had a gymnastics clinic for 2 hours. Had to get her to a birthday party after that. Finally home at 530. House is chaos. All things chaos. One foot in front of the other. Praying.